Feminism Kills

We come out of the womb with a pick axe and hammer,
ready to work every day for the rest of our life.

The truth is these mothers have no empathy or sympathy,
creating hell for their families yet I’m expected to have chivalry.

A mere pawn in her game of chess as she pretends to care,
What the fuck was I born into this shit isn’t fair.

Feminism has taught women to join hands attacking men,
treated like an evil grizzly bear we retreat to our den.
Not a shelter or home for men other than the state pen.

We’re expected to be tough and carry the weight,
yet we’re forced to start the game already in checkmate.

Government breathing down our neck to fight a war,
or maybe just put on a police uniform and attack the poor.

Can’t even smoke a joint to escape this reality,
they’ll cuff us and stuff us under an authoritarian fallacy.

Men looking for comfort where do we turn,
society apathetic we’re left in the oven to burn,
heart coming out black when no one shows concern.

Women take turns poking and prodding for some materialism,
as they join hands with government we start to see feudalism.

Government allowing every female to become a princess,
while the peons are forced to work the fields.

We try and treat people with respect and help out,
only to catch false accusations so she can protect her clout.

Sometimes I just want to go to the park and think about this utopia,
until Karen calls the police and I’m accused of pedophilia.

Men dropping out of society at an alarming rate,
my heart breaks every time I see suicide become their fate,
with no where to turn and no one to help I can honestly relate.

As women claim its equality to watch another man fall,
I lean on my faith with my back up against the wall,
thinking about all the broken men ready to uninstall.

Trapped in a coal mine as they wait outside with TNT ready to ignite,
in the end however I’ll keep my composure and do what’s right.
only because Jesus Christ taught me the way, the truth and the light.

I wish there was more I could do in this spiritual war,
but if I were to be honest with you my heart just can’t take anymore.

Focused on my friends and hobbies to carry me to apogee,
But for now I gotta go before the feminists cancel me with their insanity.

Growing Up in a Family of Narcissists

After about 12 years of no contact I decided to reach out to my sister thinking maybe she’d be interested in building a relationship. Unfortunately it seems she learned to be an exact clone of her narcissistic sociopath mother, which was heart breaking all over again. She used to be my little buddy growing up but took her place as golden child after I moved out. I’m sure the lies and manipulation have gotten far worse after I went no contact and I’ve seen plenty of evidence of this. I was, and always have been, the scapegoat of my immediate family, and because of my mother spreading lies throughout the family it only got worse over the years. I spent my childhood being ignorant of how damaging she was to my personality and emotions while being the backbone of the family. I wanted to share a couple e-mails just to show how emotionally dead narcissists are and how little they really care about you. I think this is also a great look into modern women as well, considering a sister can’t even have a real conversation with her blood brother without completely ignoring his emotions, thoughts, and feelings. What chance do us men have in the dating realm when female family members treat men this way.

After the first e-mail I sent her she ignored all my accomplishments, didn’t check out any of my travel videos or websites, didn’t even mention any of it. She went into talking about a bunch of good memories, some of which were very bad memories for me because she either ignored the reality, was gas lighting, or didn’t want to admit how terrible her mother truly is as she stands proud as the golden child. Here is my follow up e-mail correcting the “good times” and explaining what really happened to me as a child.

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From me to my sister.

I don’t choose to block out those good memories with you. It may be difficult for you to understand what I went through all those years because I had no one to turn too. I was the black sheep, the scape goat. I was always called “difficult” because I didn’t follow moms orders as she saw fit. I always tried to shield you from it all too, even during the divorce. I had to be the parent to both of them, I had to to protect you because they didn’t care.

Throughout my childhood most of the things mom did were superficial for her to look like a good mother. Underneath it all she sabotaged my life over and over again growing up. From friends, to sports, to my career in Arizona.. it was always all about her.

You would be shocked if you spent just a year in my shoes growing up. You were always my little buddy and it broke my heart when you started defending mom when she’d gas light me into a rage after I came home from Arizona.

My childhood is filled with memories of pain because of her. For you the Hairy Potter stories were fun but you don’t see what she was doing to me in the process. That story alone is painful and I remember it like it was yesterday…

Back when you had your seizures mom treated you like the scapegoat… she used to tell me things like you can’t learn right and have trouble in school and other mean things. She used to read me Hairy Potter every night and then it all changed. As your seizures went away and I started rebelling against her one night mid-book she just stopped reading to me and started reading to you. Never said anything, I walked by and saw she picked up reading from me and went to you. She played favorites with which child would bring her more narcissistic supply over and over again.

She used to gas light me and dad where dad would literally hold me down on the floor for hours while I fought to get away. Then she would pretend to be the good guy to both of us after we fought. Dad used to come into my room crying because he didn’t understand why we were fighting… this happened hundreds of times.

Some of my other early childhood memories like at 11, when mom used to barge into my room and turn the lights on while I was trying to fall asleep and accuse me of being on drugs….. 11 at night when I had school in the morning. This happened 10-15 times before I literally walked to the hardware store after school and bought locks to install on my door.. at 11 years old.

It got to the point where I would crawl into Tazes inside the garage house and cuddle him for hours crying just hiding from her. This happened hundreds of times.

Other things like my constant stomach pain in the mornings growing up… she would run around the neighborhood saying how good of a mom she was taking me to dr.s appointments and doing tests, shoving things down my throat and checking for cancer, blah blah blah, meanwhile I was just hungry in the mornings because she was too busy doing her hair to make breakfast. I was sent to school with a sugar poptart and there was never even eggs for me to cook something myself. She got more enjoyment out of looking like a good mom than actually being a good mom. Turns out I had no problems with my stomach at that point and just needed breakfast…

Another example of her gas lighting is Chloe. To you that might seem like a good memory… but for me its not. Dad brought home a book where I could see the types of dog breeds and I always wanted a big dog to play with. Mom ended up buying a 12lb Shihtzu… I remember asking her how big she would get and she said that’s it. That’s why I left her with that dog because it wasn’t for me, it was for her.

From there she started sabotaging my friendships and sports. She got me braces and would brag to my friends about how I had braces, she’d give them tin foil to pretend they had braces and she would do other things to make them jealous of me. In return over time my friendships turned into malice as those friend groups started to hate me. This all started in the school she taught in as well. Teachers in her friend group would start to single me out and bully me as well. They’d say things why are you acting like this your mother is so great, your mom is the best, why are you such a bad kid. Over and over.

Within the family she started telling everyone I was a troubled kid, making problems, and difficult to deal with meanwhile it was her gas lighting me the entire time. She used to force me to go to some psychiatrist lady that simply prescribed me anti depressants which made things even worse. I refused to take them after a month because they were terrifying. She tried her best to make me look like the problem because I was rebelling against her narcissism. She tried for months to make me take those pills.. anti depressants at 15. I wasn’t depressed… I was terrified of my own mother.

This happened for years… my friend groups turned into hate groups that would bully me and spread lies about me all because mom was planting these seeds in their head. I watched her do it. When I would have girls over she would act really creepy and aggressive.

Later on when the braces weren’t enough she talked me into doing the jaw surgery. I never wanted to do that, what kind of kid wants to do a cosmetic jaw surgery??? Where he has to literally tie his mouth shut for months all to have the perfect jaw and smile??? Those were never my ideas…

She talked me into quitting the football team as a kid when I was playing quarterback because she saw how much I actually loved it. This carried into highschool as well. The reason I dropped out of school after freshman year was because of mom. She literally told the coach I had some random disease and shouldn’t play… I literally sat the bench the entire year never playing.. at the end of the season the coach said in the celebration of the year that Logan did well with his disease and blah blah blah and thats when I knew the real reason I never played. I was the best player on the team but didn’t play a single minute in high school. How do I know this? Because on the tournament teams with Kyle Brown I literally played 85% of the game.. more than anyone else.

I have thousands of stories like this that block out the good memories and I’m thankful you mentioned them in your e-mail because I don’t have those memories anymore. They were completely swallowed by all the torture she put me through. A lot of my early childhood doesn’t even exist in memories because of the things she used to do… my mind freezes and goes blank. I have signs of sexual abuse as a child but it’s all blocked out.

It’s why I started playing video games 18 hours a day from 15 to 18. When I turned 18 I moved across the country far far away and my life got better. I had friends that cared, good jobs, opportunity.

Even when I was living in Arizona… I was about to pay off my Audi, was looking at buying houses… had a salary job making more than her or dad without a degree at the age of 21-22. I even had my own business doing what I was doing at the salary job because I taught myself how to do it. That’s when the divorce hit… and she manipulated me into thinking that if I came home I could help fix it.. she literally gas lit me for weeks into thinking if I came home maybe the marriage would work out.. only to be turned into the scapegoat once again.. I gave up EVERYTHING I had to come try and help… I was very close to comitting suicide with my beretta .45 in the basement one night, crying in the hidden closet with my marijuana plants. That’s when I started doing research on narcissistic / sociopathic mothers and she checked literally every box. Every single story people had posted, every single behavior she had, was a clone of the narcissistic mother. Jesus Christ showed me true unconditional love and I never looked back.

That’s when I decided to sell my Audi’s and buy a propane powered van and move to the farm. Haven’t talked to her since. Now I’m strong enough to understand it, and see it for what it is.. and I’ve helped thousands of other young men deal with their own narcissistic mothers through my talks, communities, and website. But that’s the truth about who mom is. If you think hard enough, you’ll realize a lot of those opportunities she gave you were for her own benefit… I watched it happen when you traveled Europe and she invited herself to go as well. The reason she talked you into going there is because she wanted to go there.

The reason we went on vacations is because she wanted to go there. She wanted to look good in society. It had nothing to do with us as kids. She wanted to brag to neighbors, she wanted to look special.

This happened a few years ago when I sent Brent a text telling him how to cure Crohns disease by eating natural raw egg yolks because it worked for me. Sent him some pictures of Bacalar Mexico and he obviously showed them to mom because she emailed me for 1-2 months trying to come visit.

I will send you some articles about narcissistic mothers and for your own healing I really recommend taking the time to read them. I was never a difficult kid, bad kid, or any of the other things she said, I was simply strong enough to rebel against her control and she hated it. No one wants to accept this was my reality, this was my childhood, because it’s easier to say, well she’s not perfect or just ignore it to not stir up the pot, but that was my reality as a kid. All these stories are real, they happened, and as a little kid I had to find a way to deal with it without a mother or father, without anyone to talk to, without anyone having MY back. Everything good I had she tried to rip it away from me all because I rebelled against her manipulation.

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My sisters reply to this e-mail.

If this is all you want to talk about I don’t want a relationship.

I am glad you have found a community and are happy. I hope your journey in life continues to bring you the things that you enjoy.

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My reply to my sister.

Can’t even acknowledge the childhood I actually had without running away from the reality we lived. I see you’ve learned a lot from your mother. Too another 15 years of silence. Don’t forget to check out my TikTok. You can see your brother being a real human being which contradicts all the lies you’ve been fed.

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Normally I don’t share memories and stories like this but I thought it could help some other young fellas out going through something similar. I know I’m not the only one that has gone through things like this but just know if you are going through the fire use it to forge your armor and become the warrior you were meant to be. Stay strong sigma.

Unlawfully Arrested and Creepy X-Rays

This night was probably the creepiest encounter I’ve ever had with police. All because I had just bought a car and didn’t get plates (You have 1 month to get them, I had proof of purchase, license, everything. Still wasn’t good enough to escape the police state.) After jumping through hoops for these narcissistic sociopaths I was then forced to go through an X-ray machine in a medical gown with the threat of violence if I refused. After reading the incident reports from both officers they conveniently leave out the part of about them searching my person as well as the x-rays. They also were dumb enough to write what they found in the illegal search after failing to mention it. After reading the incident report you will be just as confused as I was as to why they arrested me to begin with. According to the incident report I was arrested and x-rayed because of a no license plate warning? Is this real? Is this the USA? One of the many reasons I left…

Incident Report

As you’ll start to notice every word of this incident report is a fucking lie. They both lie out there ass as they cover for each other. Where did they magically find this pipe? They don’t seem to mention it anywhere. Nothing was found in the car, nothing found on my person… WTF?! If they didn’t have qualified immunity I would have sued the shit out of every person in this department that was involved. Don’t let the Jesus Christ talk fool you, if I met them in a dark alley without their costume and badge I would have loved to beat them bloody. To violently force someone into a nude x-ray for a warning for no license plate gives me justification to do what I feel necessary to protect myself. Surrounded by sociopaths with guns while in handcuffs however, you’re left with few options.

One thing that really caught my eye in the incident report is me placing both hands on the wheel for the entire traffic stop made the officer nervous. He said it was strange and he noticed it. Literally the safest thing I could do, most respectful thing I could do, is place my hands on the wheel and this was one of the reasons I was searched. It doesn’t matter how you act at this point, 99% of the police force and prison guards are malignant narcissistic sociopaths. They laugh and take joy from hurting you. They get off when they over power you and force you to obey. This is reality at this point and its only going to get worse.

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All Police Officers Have a Mental Disorder

That might seem like a generalization but the reality is every cop maintains a delusion every day he gets up and puts on his costume. Every day he puts on a silly little badge and pretends to be super hero of the community. The reality is these meat heads are nothing but revenue generators for the corporations they work for (the city). In most cases they aren’t required to protect or help anyone and often times chose to stand down in active shooter situations because they are “scared” for their own life. They pull their gun and taser at every traffic stop because they are scared they might “die”. These men are total cowards, children in adult bodies, pretending they have some god ordained authority to tell others how to live their life. If for one minute the same law that civilians lived by was applied to these rogue cuck police officers there would be chaos. They parade themselves as heroes but are nothing short of narcissistic sociopaths.

Ever tried to have a discussion with a cop? Ever notice how dumbed down, braindead, and stupid they are? How aggressive and angry they become if you question any of their made up rules or delusions of superiority. They act like James Bond saving the world when they bust a single pothead for a pipe in the car. Ever been at a DUI checkpoint and heard one of these cucks call out for a supervisor because someone questions their authority? They sound like a 12 year old nerd in high school getting picked on. Whaaaat, how dare youuuu screeeeeach question my authority. I have a badge and a gun! See I will point them at you if you don’t obey my orders you dog civilian. (Literal video evidence all over YouTube). Cops are cucked out cowards.

I remember I was on a traffic stop once a few years back and this dumbass cop had no idea what the laws were, how law worked, or anything in between. Dude was dumber than a box of rocks and when I tried to explain and show him how real law worked his supervisor told him “no!” don’t read that as his hand was out stretched to read it. Like a little dog he went back to his car with his tail between his legs and his commander gave him a nice pat on the butt for being a good boy. Dude probably got promoted that day and only had to give up his dignity as his free mason superior scootered his booter. The idea a group of people would have the authority or audacity to handcuff human beings for smoking weed or some other trivial reason is mind blowing. That this stupid SIMP thinks he has some power over you as a human being because someone told him so. The entire thing is a delusion, the entire concept of thinking one douche bag would have authority over you because of his costume is just delusional.

Most people can’t even look at it like this because they’re public school zombies, can’t remember math but you sure as heck know that someone in a costume means authority. That’s why cops act like bitches when you question it, they are used to blind obedience to the “authority” and they get off on it. It’s a sociopaths wet dream, a narcissists heaven, to have government ordained authority to literally gas light, lie, manipulate, and trick people into surrendering their freedom. To get off and laugh, smile, and make jokes as you try and write tickets that could ruin their life for simply smoking weed or selling raw milk. As you parade around in your cute outfits pretending your some sort of real hero or warrior is the vary essence of the narcissistic sociopath. To project the total opposite of what you are, and onto the people, as you wear your mask and body armor.

Running around like chickens with your head cut off protecting bank assets, forcing foreclosures, and even evicting people all on a banks whim. (Most of which were proven frauds). Yet police had no problem backing their corporate overlords, whom they truly protect and raise money for. In a town of 15,000 they’d be driving around in armored personnel carries from Iraq colored in with their city name and corporate label. Thinking they are soldiers on a battlefield, yet they have no enemy; yet. They treat everyone around them as lesser thans, civilians, pretending their 6 month cop training gave them super powers as they protect the world from terrorists in their hoe dunk town of 500. These men have no honor, no bravery, they have no dignity as they claim another paycheck at the hands of every taxpayer pretending they are protectors of the community.

Question them? The only response you’ll get is “I’m just doing my job” and a parade of statists exclaiming how you’re a domestic terrorist. As men in costumes swarm the streets in military vehicles, those that question them are the “terrorists”. Just some more good old fashion blame shifting of the narcissist. When you actually go symptom to symptom you realize most cops really are narcissistic fools playing a game. In reality, that’s all they are, some stupid retard in a costume that thinks he’s saving the world by collecting revenue from the very people that pay his salary. He protects those that destroy his own community while pretending to protect it. They all reap the benefits of high pay, little risk, and the facade of a super hero even when they break the law. Kill someone out of anger? It’s cool, take 2 months paid leave, we will sort it out. Get angry because some little punk questions your authority and your little dicked douche bag self can’t handle it so you pulled your gun and shot him? No worries. Transfer departments. Cop’s aren’t heroes, those that question them are.

Signs and Symptoms of Narcissistic Personality Disorder
1) Grandiose sense of self-importance
2) Lives in a fantasy world that supports their delusions of grandeur
3) Needs constant praise and admiration
4) Sense of entitlement
5) Exploits others without guilt or shame
6) Frequently demeans, intimidates, bullies, or belittles others

Reaction to Confrontation
What can you expect when you do confront a narcissist? Generally, they will resort to narcissistic rage (explosive or passive-aggressive) or denial. He or she may become enraged, deny everything, call you a liar, twist reality, blame you and then play the victim. You may be the recipient of rage and aggression or the victim of The Silent Treatment. It is also common for him or her to project everything you say about them on to you. For example, if you confront them about infidelity, they will turn it around and claim that you must be the one who cheated for you to even bring it up. If you are strong enough to cope with this treatment, then go ahead and use the strategies below to confront him (or her). If you are hoping for a permanent, positive change in their behavior, more disappointment or pain is likely on the way.

Narcissistic Rage
Why do they go into a “narcissistic rage”? They become enraged because they believe they are perfect and beyond reproach. They cannot accept any sort of disagreement, criticism or accountability for their actions. “Narcissists react with narcissistic rage to narcissistic injury”.

1. Explosive – The narcissist erupts like a volcano, attacks everyone around him, causes damage to objects or people, and is highly abusive.

2. Passive-Aggressive – The narcissist sulks, gives The Silent Treatment, and makes plans on how to punish the person. They are malicious and vengeful. They harass, disturb, sabotage and damage the work or possessions of the transgressors.

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How to Catch Any Girl Monkey Branching

Monkey branching is a term used to describe the action of a women moving from one man to the next trying to work her way up the “tree” sort to say. Women do this by setting up their new man as they swing from the last one, to the new one. Not only is it quite common, but there are ways you can prove to yourself that this is indeed fact, rather than opinion.

I have personally put this to the test in my own life, as well as telling friends to try it as well. The method is rather simple, although some may call it creepy. The ones that call it creepy are generally women caught with their hands in the cookie jar. The reality is, 100% of the times I have done this trick it has proven each time that these women are liars, untrustworthy, and indeed looking for the next branch to swing too.

The first step in proving that your girl is in fact disloyal, dishonest, and most likely a total slut is to create a Facebook. Go to the Russian version of Facebook, I forget the name, and find a profile of a good looking dude with some muscles and a few photos in nice outfits. Proceed to create your spoof Facebook account while adding some cool things to the profile. A decent college, some travel, cool photos from traveling, blah blah blah. You know the drill.

Next build up your friend base, find some thirsty women to get some likes on your photos, gay guys also work well for this. Create a profile that is active and vibrant so it would not be detected as a “fake profile” by the unsuspecting monkey brancher. Once your profile looks legit with some friends, comments, and likes; proceed to add your girlfriend, wife, or whoever. Spark up a flirty conversation, hold nothing back, be a bit of an ass but also kind. This will put them into a bit of a spin, having some hot hunk chatting them up online.

Their hypergamy will be in full swing as you continue the conversation. The entire time they are thinking how hot and great they are, to easily manipulate and control two men, when in reality they are being played for the disloyal whore they are. You will start to see a confidence boost in the way she speaks to you, getting more naughty thinking she is in control. Now that you’ve proven to yourself who she really is, what she’s really about, and that every women you will meet will most likely be exactly like this, becomes a reality.

From here you have many options… back when I was younger I had a lot of anger issues and would do some pretty mean things with the photos received or the conversations had, like exposing it. Another thing I have done is really messed with their heads using exact conversations from Facebook in real life. The looks of confusion and the lies I’ve heard were so entertaining. Seeing the gerbil run on the wheel as they tried to manipulate their way out of reality.

Eventually as I got older though it dawned on me, that I was wasting even more valuable time doing these things when the reality was; they weren’t worth my time at all. I could have spent that time doing something of real value but instead I was getting a psychological dose of revenge. It felt great, it was hilarious, and it made for some unique stories, but at the end of the day each girl was like this. Every girl, even the nicest fake christian, was guilty of all of this. They had no problem casting away their current partner like he was a nasty ball of hair clogged in your shower drain. Tossed aside like a disposable utility. These women never cared. They never had an ounce of empathy or compassion for me or the man they were attempting to monkey branch too or from.

They’d make up clear lies, even coming in to talk to me before answering the online guys question of “do you have a boyfriend”. The most bizarre and selfish behavior I have ever seen in my life. You too can see this for yourself, as I did. I don’t recommend you stay there long, but learn from the experience and use it to push yourself forward and stop putting your time and energy into women when they view you as nothing more than a branch to swing from as they climb higher and higher at your expense.

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