Nihilism, Black Pill, or Self Promotion

I’ve been working on this website for about 10 years now. It was always my place to escape. My safe space. I could write, say, post, draw, design, larp, idk, anything I want. I’ve been banned from mainstream platforms hundreds.. if you include my fake accounts for trolling, thousands of times. It’s almost like wanting to disappear but you put that energy into disrupting the brainwaves of your normie e-neighbors. You really don’t care what happens, because the reality is society has always been dead.

I can work a job, with my hands whether carpenter or SEO specialist. Had my first salary career after dropping out of community college. Self taught in basic internet code and charisma I had a high paying job. Honestly though my only comfort zone was Nagolbud.com – with a mask on I used to train police science to be on a SWAT team. Got busted by some fag cop and decided to change my routine to hippy professor studying animal enzymes. Only to discover evolution and the system are the only dimes.

Dropped out of college 5 times in 3 years, 12 degrees, still searching for answers.’ Said fuck it all and sold the Audi’s for a propane powered van. Headed to the forest gonna construct me a homestead. Hey bitch, don’t you know you need special permissions to build with on property materials. Adobe house and log cabin ready only to be attacked by badges dick licking authority for pesos.

Shovel in hand evicted for not promoting the right house registration. With the power of the state at hand, violence and weapons ready to apprehend. What do you mean you don’t have a mortgage for 250 grand. You built a house in 2 years off the land? We can’t allow that because our bosses demand. I’ve gotta reach a quota or else I’ll be in big trouble by the sergeant. Fags in costumes dictating my life, what are you gonna do when the douches come for you about it.

Normies don’t care as they prance around in mouth diapers. Shit spilling off their lips as they parrot the main stream media. Corona virus gonna eat you and it spreads through butterflies, running to your room ya hypnotized. I guess today they’ve got elections but I’m in Mexico laughing at the patreons. Signed up monthly for their income tax never second guessing their government wax. Ass hairs plucked clean their masculinity looking like a 7 year old baby boy.

What else is there to say, we live in a broken society. Normies propping it up to maintain their endless supply of cool aide. Don’t question a thing as you watch the screen. Sometimes the crazies understand but your too busy gassing yourself up in the mirror. Narcissists and atheists eating societies cock for a little respect in mainstream context. Who are we kidding they won’t challenge the media made narrative without engaging their gag reflex.

Green Pill $ is the New Red Pill

There’s nothing worse than listening to some blue haired Twitch feminist talking about how he loves being cucked by his wife, as he rambles on about his self perceived confusions and lack of critical thinking against some self proclaimed red pill guru on some douchey pod cast. Yet this is where the “red pill movement” is in the current stage.

Whether it be some pick me chick regurgitating 20 year old manosphere concepts or the lame grifter applying his beta male mentality to the red pill movement to collect a few coins. Those that think for themselves, focused on self improvement, and generally want to help their community grow, are silenced by shadow bans and censorship while the narcissistic take control of each grass roots movement.

The real concepts behind the original “red pill” are brushed under the rug so these jokers can collect their e-paycheck. Never embracing the ideologies of self reflection required to grow physically or mentally, sucking down another vaccine of conformity mainstream.

The clown space on the other side jumps on board attacking the wanna be red pillars until the entire movement is saturated with bullshit and drama. Each social media video becoming less about questioning society and more about generating views for revenue. There is no more red pill or blue pill, only green pill. Each side barking like dogs in the comments as the shills and crisis actors plant the seeds of division among the ignorant for a few wheels of cheese.

Everyone pretending their words are gospel, never mentioning the Bible in their search for truth among the zombie apocalypse. This is why labels can be quite dangerous, regardless of which one you wear, there’s always someone willing to manipulate it into a cash cow. It doesn’t matter whether your tie is blue or red, whether you voted for one puppet or another, society gets caught up in some low IQ soap opera so they can feel relevant as they dish out insults on [insert podcast name here].

Real critical thinking and conversation are pushed out the door, all so the normies can feel safe in their delusions of obedience. Where oh where are the critical thinkers? The self improvement homemakers? Lost at sea waiting to be gobbled up by psyop Kraken monsters..

There’s no point in mentioning names as these internet celebrities are repeated and recycled over and over again. Like a printing press churning out the same personalities as no one has the ability to stand on their own. Popularity and riches are the main goal over helping another human grow and become someone of value.

Viewers and conversations turned into numbers and money as another man pretends to care. Single women chasing internet clout riding the red pill as she hits 40 chasing her YouTube subscriber count. Ridiculing the very women she has become, another self focused career lackey with no husband or family as her collection of cats starts to grow.

Skeptics unable to upload a video to social media without being banned, the original red pill movement is most certainly dead. Replaced by sensationalism and everyone playing the victim, on all sides of the round table no one able to take responsibility for the things they say. Yet these very same people have the biggest platforms, thousands of millions tune in for their daily dose of programming, never questioning a thing as they larp and defend.

Meanwhile food prices have tripled as the elite dish out their climate crisis non-sense to a crowd of chemically boosted lemmings ready to jump off a bridge. Where oh where are the critical thinkers? The self improvement homemakers? Lost at sea waiting to be gobbled up by psyop Kraken monsters..

The original red pill movement exiled to the dark web, as mainstream platforms prefer division and hate over truth and accountability. Souls being sold on the black market like a modern day slave market as many jump on the bandwagon. “Gimme some more drama and hate so I can make a reaction video to grow my Patreon account. Just one more response video so I can prove to the world I’m the coolest grifter red pill guru dating coach conformity booster piller.”

Social media loving each video of hate you produce, as they collect $millions$ off your cries for social change while the elite brainwash the movement into another agenda. Unable to see past this reality, just to become another fanboy subscribed to red pill guru’s OnlyFans.

The reality is anyone that spends their life on social media is brain dead. Wasting your life away to appease the applause of conformity just to be looked down on like a worm digging in the dirt. Never challenging yourself with new ideas or hobbies as your backbone disappears, unable to stand up for your own opinions or ideas.

As depression and anxiety eat away at your heart like a modern day plague, prescription pills and self induced pain become the normalized cow pie. It’s time you realize that even a worm can turn a pile of shit into a rich mound of compost, fertilizing your crops as you start to grow something of value in your fields of self reflection and discipline. Where oh where are the critical thinkers? The self improvement homemakers? Lost at sea waiting to be gobbled up by psyop Kraken monsters..

Not only do we have these fake traditional women larping the red pill while chasing an internet career but now Only Fans chicks are script reading it as well. Everyone trying to cash in on the collapse of strong men and women..

Individualism is the Fertilizer

It’s easy for men to get stuck inside the gerbil ball of the red pill loop. Seeing video after video of women acting like narcissists while abusing men can leave your mind tainted with hate. Another politician pocketing your taxes as they destroy the homeland’s heartbeat. As the truth movement slides into sociopathy they parrot emotional psychological operations with a voice that carries no weight. One thing I never understood about MGTOW is how they bash women constantly while claiming to go their own way, some strange beta male obsession with trying to change modern day female nature.

I’ll admit, when I first starting realizing that many modern women are quite cruel and heartless it made me angry. Understanding each relationship and pain suffered because of the trust placed in a women that took advantage of me. Watching society turn politicians into heroes as they robbed them behind the scenes. Young men being sent off to war to fight for the collection of some corporation’s resources and profit.

The same feelings of anger and disdain spread over all aspects of red pill rage. The truth is though, it was a part of me becoming a man. I was wasting way to much time chasing women (even if I got them). Worrying about relationships and if she was cheating, all for my fears to come true. Thinking I could wake up the world to the reality of satanic pedophile elite as they cling to their pride. It was all a waste of time as the world sees what it wants too, hiding behind labels of self defeat.

But what if I had been putting all that time into growing my business or building real networks that would benefit me and my community for years to come. What if I spent all that time practicing a new hobby and becoming an expert at it. What if I stepped outside of society and operated on my own terms to build myself as an individualist, free to think however I please.

That’s where growth and discipline come into play. By making those mistakes and learning from them I was able to find out what was truly important in my life and start focusing on it. To step away from the emotional control arms of the matrix’s spiders and find out who I really was.

The rage and imitation inside the red pill community is what keeps it from growing. When you try and copy another man or put him on a pedestal you’re simply replacing your need for validation from a women onto a man. Or turning a politician into a god as you clap away to the consent of your own community being enslaved.

Militarized police patting you on the shoulder saying ‘good boy’. Spending thousands on MGTOW alpha man’s courses and guru eBooks never taking growth into your own hands. Never picking up a book yourself and reading, a new hobby or daily discipline. The reality is men need to take this emotional rage and turn it into logical direction. Regardless of who’s flinging shit you need to be able to hold up the shield.

No one is going to be able to tell you exactly what you need to hear to motivate you, only you know where that motivation can come from based on your own stories. If you reject Jesus Christ there certainly ain’t anyone else coming to save you. Yet, imagine rejecting Jesus Christ while embracing the words of a shill, politician, or social media influencer.

It could be as easy as buying some nails, wood, and a saw; to build a new dresser or table in your house. Maybe even a chicken coop as you become more self reliant while food prices skyrocket. Maybe pick up a guitar and play a song for your flock of egg laying hens. Why waste another day trying to copy an internet junkie when you could just be yourself.

When you’re surrounded with other bitter angry men you’ll find your emotions mimicking them. Brain fog surrounding your thoughts as you remain stuck in the mud. Repeating the same propaganda for 80 years without realizing it’s a ruse. All part of their agenda to divide and conquer in some hegelian style.

Mainstream Popular Culture Defined

You might go to the gym and work your 9-5, but mental growth goes unchecked. Never writing a poem or sketching out your dream house. Wasting your nights watching some lame ass pagan Baphomet entertainment. When you let go of the rage you start to see millions of options open up without anything more than your attempt at change; anger and rage being a part of their plan.

The truth is modern women and politicians are not your problem. Why take responsibility for their actions when you have so many possibilities for fulfillment in this short life. Why cry in social media comments about the Jews when you can’t even take care of yourself as you slam down another McDonalds milkshake. Just another Super Bowl with a tranny half time show as you guzzle down a few more Chex Mix and Bud Lights.

That’s one thing many men forget when it comes to the “red pill community” as they strap on the label of this weeks coolaid. Individualism is the most important brick in the foundation of a man’s logical DNA. Labels like MGTOW and red pill are just gatekeepers hiding the key. The JeWs DiD iT rhetoric used to control your mind like hypnosis as you repeat the words of the Pagan priest class clergy.

Getting irrationally emotional over left vs right political rhetoric as their psychological operations fly over head, stuck in the red pill anger cycle of self injected delusions. Most can’t even provide food and water from the land as they cry about politicians larping on CNN. What good is a militia when none of them can live off grid.

The revolutionaries will be searching dumpsters for food as the satanic priest class tighten their grip on societies lively hood. Can’t even sew clothes as the rebels freeze to death eating grasshopper hotpockets trying to take the Capital. What good is a revolution when our keyword commandos outnumber the self sufficient men..

Sigma Male Grindset

Beta, Alpha, and the Sigma

The red pill community is filled with talks about beta males and alpha males, from the wannabe alphas spreading their pick up artist techniques and e-books to betas pretending to be alpha by slinging out insults to sex workers on their podcast. These men are constantly chasing societies validation or trying to mimic social cues to elevate their social status.

What goes unmentioned in many of these talks is the sigma male. The reality is the sigma male is just label given to men that put their individualism first. They maintain their own critical thinking and talking points regardless of what people say around them. They create their own confidence through their skills and hobbies rather than relying on others around them.

A true sigma male doesn’t call himself one, nor does he hold himself above others in the societal hierarchy. He doesn’t need labels or a crowd to validate his thoughts. He is free in his own thought process and individualism which is where his confidence actually derives from. Instead of trying to mimic wannabe red pill men on the internet, instead of watching clips of men putting down sex workers, instead of trying to grift money off their viewers, they simply speak their mind unapologetically.

A real sigma male will never turn to an alpha or a beta for their purpose. They look at the current manosphere as a total joke, which it is. Men using labels to generate an income while making fun of the “sigma” male label, while at they same time promoting their patreon and goofy ass pick up techniques. They don’t understand how a man could actually be an individualist as their own identity is derived from how others perceive them.

This is the biggest difference between these labels, is those that fit the criteria of a sigma male are often lone wolves. They require no feedback from weak men, wannabe alphas, the red pill community, or the pick up artists. A real men is focused on his purpose, his hobbies, his skillsets, and this is where his validation comes from. Weak men need validation from society, so put whatever labels you want on it, in the strong males eyes, beta and alpha are the same, both are weak men that require constant validation from society to prop up his fragile ego.

In many ways the alpha is just a loud mouthed beta, running on emotion and getting offended when someone doesn’t validate his hierarchy. This is why the sigma label is constantly belittled and made fun of, because these men have no idea how to actually be a strong man. They require other weak men to prop them up on a pedestal like the very women they make fun of. All the while these men are begging for donations and patreon subs, you pay for their lambo while the sigma is building real businesses and promoting others to find their own individualism.

Status to a sigma is irrelevant, how you perceive him is irrelevant, and that’s what weak men hate. This is why they constantly ignore freedom in thought and replace it for an echo chamber of worship. Alphas want betas to worship them and betas want to feel power through the loud mouthed alpha, mean while the sigma is sitting on the sidelines laughing, if he’s even watching. Many strong men just don’t have the time for these petty boring repeatable red pill conversations.

The entire community taken over by boring nonsense that promotes destruction rather than growth. Why would a manosphere redpill podcast want you to grow when your stuck in their $50 dollar a month program where you can learn basic business or pick up techniques, whereas the sigma is watching and growing through free content from other strong men that have an abundance of thought and critical thinking.

There are plenty of examples of wannabe alphas shouting into the wind, using the same red pill rhetoric from the manosphere 20 years ago, all to generate an income. Whether it be Fresh and Fit or Andrew Tate, their entire existence requires weak men to prop them up. Bragging about driving expensive cars, expensive watches, their $1000 dollar skinny boy jeans, or having a rented women on their arms. All bought by taking advantage of weak men, from internet porn businesses, to casinos, pick up artists techniques, to goofy basic business courses that come with a fee.

A real man looks at this and laughs, a man like, Bruce Lee, Fiore dei Liberi, Erich Fromm, Alan Kay, Chuck Palahniuk, Ansel Adams, Michael Bassey Johnson, Jakub Bozydar Wisniewski, all of which offer insight and growth for free rather than the same ear tickling for profit like the current red pill manosphere.

Here are a few quotes from those mentioned to prove this point:

Only the self-sufficient stand alone, most people follow the crowd and imitate.” – Bruce Lee

Be audacious in violence and young at heart. Have no fear in your mind; only then can you perform.” – Fiore dei Liberi

The real opposition is that between the ego-bound man, whose existence is structured by the principle of having, and the free man, who has overcome his egocentricity.” – Erich Fromm

Stop looking for validation at the quality of your results and instead feel pride at the quality of your effort.” – Alan Kay

The things you own end up owning you. It’s only after you lose everything that you’re free to do anything.” – Chuck Palahniuk

No man has the right to dictate what other men should perceive, create or produce, but all should be encouraged to reveal themselves, their perceptions and emotions, and to build confidence in the creative spirit.” – Ansel Adams

Always remember that you were once alone, and the crowd you see in your life today are just as unnecessary as when you were alone.” – Michael Bassey Johnson

The uniqueness of every soul is not a theme that our current culture, obsessed with group identities, cares to assert.” – Dean Koontz

Individualism turns a band into a community. Collectivism turns society into a mob.” – Jakub Bozydar Wisniewski

You can see how cleverly they promote their ideas and critical thinking in a way that promotes your own, rather than trying to cash in on ideas that have been around for decades, they stand on their own individualism while promoting yours. This is the real difference between strong men and weak men, betas and alphas versus sigmas, regardless of the labels, it’s easy to see the difference in character between these men.

A man that cares what others think of him, or a man that is willing to stand on his own morals and principles regardless of what people say about him. These are defining characteristics of a sigma male, a strong man, an individualist. A man that cares about his community, family, and the people around him, a man that wants to see others succeed rather than tax them into a repeatable profit loop.

The idea behind the sigma male is made into a joke because these men don’t want you to think for yourself, society and government certainly don’t want you to either. A strong man that relies on his own wing span is far more dangerous than a man fronting with the matrix as he brags about his Bugatti and Rolex. A man far more dangerous is the one that doesn’t rely on society or it’s conformity to succeed, a man that laughs in the face of materialism and embraces his very own individualism.

Learning How to Grow After Red Pill Rage

Getting hit with a sledgehammer hurts. Just dropping one on your toe can be painful. Now imagine having 5 large men come into your home and hit everything in your house with a sledgehammer and boomeranging them at your head before they leave. This is about the equivalent to waking up. Taking the red pill will change your life forever. The moment your delusions come crashing down and reality hits you can be devastating. It can also be extremely liberating. It’s hard to describe this exact feeling. As if you’ve been wearing blinders your entire life and someone rips them off and your left seeing everything you had been ignoring for so long.

Most of the people reading this article will know this feeling. They will know the anger, the frustration, the anxiety, the emotional roller coaster of seeing our reality. All of these feelings are justified. Being angry at corruption and evil is righteous. Getting angry about liars, manipulators, and game players is nothing short of reasonable. It becomes a problem when you get stuck on these emotions though. When you get hung up on these realities.

When you dwell on these things it simply eats you up from the inside out. Slowly you become more and more angry taking out frustrations on innocent people. Understanding how and when to step back and look at yourself is key to growing as a human being. Changing your behavior or reading a self help book won’t work. The reality is you need to understand why you do something in order to stop doing it and grow. You wanting to quit smoking will be extremely difficult if you don’t understand the reasons that cause you to want a cigarette.

I wish I could give you a list of things to do to grow. With plants it’s easy. I simply have to water them and give them some rabbit poop / fertilizer and put them in the sun. Simple. Effective. Humans however, it’s not that easy. Wanting to grow comes with the reality of taking responsibility for your actions, reflecting on yourself and how you treat people, and analyzing your goals.

It comes from looking at your past, present, and future while being able to confront yourself and search out truths that may or may not contradict your entire reality. If you can’t question what you believe without getting emotional perhaps there’s a reason for that. Perhaps there’s a reason you get emotional before questioning your belief system. Perhaps there’s a reason you feel hot, angry, and tempered over certain topics of politics, religion, or Jesus Christ. Have you ever asked yourself WHY?

Looking at yourself in the mirror is not an easy thing to do. To question your motives for why you help someone or why you were willing to do something for them. Was it for your own gain? Was it simply to help them? Was it to get one over on them so they owe you a favor? See, most people will help others in a hard spot, but most people aren’t doing it simply to help. Most people have an agenda. I’ve noticed this in myself as well.

I often say there are no good people in this world, and the best of the bunch simply have good intentions. Example: If I pull over to help someone change a tire it might be because I simply want to help. When I notice that she’s a beautiful, curvy, foreign real estate agent my motives my sway from helping to getting a phone number. What started as me wanting to help ended in me going after some tail. We have good intentions but our human nature gets in the way.

Another thing you will learn about yourself when you look in the mirror is that you are not much different from the people you dislike. It’s often your own qualities that you find yourself hating in other people. When you take the time to self reflect it humbles you. It brings you back to the reality that you aren’t much different than the blue piller. They are simply one truth behind you. You’ve paid the same illegal taxes, you’ve supported the same corrupt military industrial complex, you’ve voted the same slave masters, you both clap when a grown man throws a rubber sphere into a basket. We are all guilty of these things. The thing to remember though is even a plant can’t grow in the dark.

Seeing things as they are and reflecting on yourself creates a peace and joy in your life. You don’t get as angry about others faults or mistakes. Just like a plant, we need food; we need truth and red pills. We also need sunshine. Hiding who we are or what we are stops growth. Analyze yourself in full light and see how much faster you will grow. You can’t self reflect when you’re hiding your worst traits. Most people get stuck in their emotional red pill rage because they expect the world to change. They expect things around them to change because they woke up.

The reality is that it’s not going to. That it will only get worse and being angry about it only hurts you. It only stops YOU from growing. The hot girl next door riding the cock carousel getting a free dinner every night doesn’t care that you woke up. She doesn’t care about red pills. Neither does the Vatican or their fake jew bankers. Like a freight train slowing down for a kitten on the tracks, it’s not going to happen. Accepting this gives you peace and the desire to want to grow yourself.